Sometimes I wonder about what will come next...where will my life turn when it seems to stall? When is the next time i'll get a REAL smile again? If I were to fall again would i have the strength to get up? Happiness fills me with a touch of sadness....By that I mean I know it wont last too long....Beauty decays and laughter subsides...When will the roses and fragerence of happiness crumble up and die?...Tragedy can be measured by the ammount of happiness taken away...Elusion is our only protection =)...We fall victom to its prey...Now when i've reached a fork in lifes road and the choices are growing less and less I follow the one that leads away from misfortune..what more can I do? ...When life is good hold it in your hand...but not too tight as it might slip away...you have to close your eyes and breath it in slowly :) Happiness may end while tragedy begins...Today is the beginning...can tomorrow be the end? I think about having you but not really having you...how can i hold your hand and ignore the cries within myself? Its brings me joy to see you smile, but my emptiness still sits up on the shelf...inside my heart will bleed but I will never let you know...Only the tear drop that falls down my cheek might give you a hint...a shadow...a trace of whats crawling inside of my skin... I suffocate when I try to breathe..the chains which you shackled me with won't let my body go...I have dreams and needs and wants too you know? I struggle with my demons each day ...you feed them but you don't realize I am slowly dying...I want to smile as i look up at the sky but the suns beams just bring more tears to my eyes....Give me hope tht everything will be ok...I need you god more then ever now
