I feel something that I've truly lost my way...sometimes its hard to make it through the day...when i have a chance to sit and think i stare ahead and lose myself into space....my heart is loudly crying out for you...my soul is crying out for that unconditional love only a mother can give...I don't know how I've made it this long and kept myself so strong...I guess i am still in hopes that one day you will be my mom unconditionally... It's been so hard without you by my side...you are a part of me no matter what... a piece of my soul... until you find me i will be nothing... I am so sorry that I didn't try harder and one day I hope you will know that i never wanted anything bad to happen to you...even though it tore my world in two I couldn't ever imagine putting you in a bad situation so i just put up with the pain...I want you to know wherever you are you are always here in my heart...and that I'm leaving this in god's control that one day he'll send my mom back to me ... my love for you will never end....just know that a daughters love is forever