I stand and fall behind your shadow... i wonder... do i look like you? why am i so stupid? why do i put up with everyone's shit? did i get it from you? Its a tough battle and I feel so small... my feelings towards you you might think are dumb... but im sad.. confused... and hurt... when i needed a mom you were not there....was it something I did or said or you just didn't want a kid? Its too late now and it will never be the same... I look for a mothers love but it will NEVER be the same...without knowing who you are I feel like I don't know myself... I always wonder what you could be like... did you ever wonder how things could have been? no one is there to show me the way.... how am i supposed to know? I don't know what to do or where to go... I thought parents were the guiding hand... Am i supposed to try and make it alone with nothing to fall back on? it seems no matter how hard I try I just end up back at the beginning...Ok god... I have tried everything I know... where do i go from here? you are supposed to have the answers but why don't you give it to me? hello mom...goodbye mom...that's all i remember... you brought me into this world... i wish you hadn't.... its a cruel and unforgiving place where no one but my shadows hear me cry... people say they will always be there but i have heard that lie so many times... where were you mom when i needed you? you look like your mom sairah lol... to be like you I'd rather be dead... what mother you know would abandon there kid? probably a lot more then you would ever think eh?