Things I figured out

1) now I know why you used to get so angry when I used to sleep too close to you
2) now I know why you used to come home so late when you went to drop my sister to the station
3) now I know why you had been acting different with me since i came
4) now I know why you always wanted me to go out by myself or with my sisters or friends
5) now I know why every time we asked you to go somewhere with us you always made excuses and sent us alone
6) I am yours but I am with condition


Things that hurt

1) I thought you could never lie... I trusted you blindly... put all my faith in you... I thought you could never do anything wrong.. that there was nobody as pure and as innocent as you in this world... if you would have told me the sky is falling I would have believed it... but you shattered those thoughts of mine... now who do i trust? :( I want to be able to trust you... you were the only person in the world that I could trust more than anything... I want to be able to trust you.. but can I?

2) When I was sick I was in so much pain... I wasn't feeling good at all...but you let me go through 2 days of pain... and you told me I could have made you better the first day but I couldn't because the girls would have gotten angry.. so because they would have gotten angry you let me suffer for two more days?

3) you said you were having problem because you couldn't talk to him because I wouldn't sleep in another room... I wanted to sleep with you... ya...i did...my bad !!!

4) you couldn't talk to him because I was using your phone... you should have told me in the beginning itself... I wouldn't have even touched your phone... I would have gotten one of my own...

5) its just wrong !!! :(

I know you don't mean it and I know you try to keep me out of harms way but it all hurts... Maybe i jus have too much expectations? I don't know... Maybe its just my faith? Could be... Maybe I am jus not meant to have any bit of security and happiness in my life? .... ya that sounds about right...anyways for now

Over and Out