Maa....

How can I complain to you? How can I complain about you? You never made any promises that you broke right? You never said anything that never happened right? You just gave birth to me...who said you had to be in my life? No promises were broken...No harsh words were said...then why do I hurt so much? Why do I feel a sharp pain everytime I say the word "mom"....Mamma I Need you...but I have no way to let you know...I long for your tender hugs...and your reassuring words....I Thrieve for those words I never heard...." I love you beta"....Why couldn't you just lie to me and told me you loved me ? Just one time....Now I know i'll never see you again and it hurts mamma...It feels like Someone has a blade in my wrist and day by day they are carving deeper and deeper...but maybe thats a good thing...cuz soon i'll become friends with the pain and I won't feel it anymore right?...I wish you were here...I need someone more then ever....I am tired of crying alone and not having someone there to comfort me....I lived thinking one day...One day I will see my mom...now its impossible...and I wish I could turn back time so I could force you=( It hurts....