Unbearable Pain

It's unbearable when you're not around……It had been the such an infinetly fulfilling sensation, when I pressed my lips to yours, as if it suddenly didn't matter if everything else around us crumbled and fell away….. It felt like your kiss alone was enough to sustain me…..And it still is....Because you own a part of me that can not be replaced….. Because I'll never be the same with you, or without you-and because I'm bound to you by something that can not even be explained….much less understood….I had a perfect plan. A plan to forget….. Then, one day, there you were….. I saw you! You haven't changed a bit….. It was like a memory standing in front of me. ….As you talked to me I remembered that there was something I needed to think of….. After a while you left….. When you escaped from my view, I remembered….. I had to avoid you…. Yes. I made a mistake, but I knew that the next time it would be different….. Many weeks passed and I saw you again…..You talked to me about some stupid things….. I remembered that there was something I needed to think of. ….I didin't care then because I was with you…. And again, you left, leaving me there to fight with my emotions…alone. ….Then, suddenly I remembered…. I was supposed to avoid you, not talk to you, close my eyes when I see you…. That is what I will do next time. …And next time came too soon….. I tried to close my eyes but you wouldn't let me…. I tried to avoid you but you saw me first…. I tried not to talk but....Story repeated! As my feeling grew stronger I forgot about my plan….. I went to all the places where you could be, just because of the chance that I might see you….. I walked through lonley city streets, just because of the chance that you might be there….. I walked, and searched, and screamed your name…. But you never came…. I never saw you again….Thanks for taking away the words…I'm so afraid….I'm aware of things you're hiding….You'll find me drowned in your tears...But I doubt that you'll ever care….